What I Wish I’d Known

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It’s an overused motif, really. But every mother has some secret locked away – a confession waiting to be read.

And, after two years of blogging, I suppose it’s my turn.

Of all my life’s choices, I wish I had mastered something so simple – so vital to parenthood.

Before children, I never learned to savor the moment right in front of me.

Truly, when children arrive, you don’t have time to fix all of your flaws – or, in most cases, any. You are lucky to escape the house with your clothing intact and unstained. And even when your child is no longer permanently latched to you, your eyes become permanently latched to them.

And time feels like sand slipping through chubby little fingers.

That outfit you saved for a special occasion no longer fits your child.

That sweet phrase you heard mispronounced at least 1,000 times is finally corrected.

That adventure you thought could be replicated is no longer within reach. 

Most recently, the pain of regret struck me at the kitchen counter. My daughter had pressed her plastic pink teapot into my leg, just behind the knee. Play with me, Momma.

Only, I couldn’t. I was cleaning.

But five minutes later, the disheveled, empty playroom was a sobering reminder. Two teacups were still perfectly stacked – still unused.

The moment will pass if you don’t seize it.

So, today, I have cleared my afternoon for tea with my little people. We will wear fancy scarves, we will sit in ridiculously small chairs, and we will taste the sweet treats of life.

Two children. One mother. And the endless crumbs of love.

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6 thoughts on “What I Wish I’d Known

  1. As a stay-at-home mum of an only child I ended up playing shops, post offices and houses on many an afternoon but here’s the thing, and I might not be popular for saying this, it can get truly mind-numbing so important that same age friends come round to play OFTEN. The perils of having only one child.

    If you are a working mum however the cleaning and chores can always wait, as these moments are fleeting indeed. For those of us who stayed at home, there were sometimes too many hours of play at the expense of mental stimulation – Like with everything, it’s a balance.

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    1. Yes, balance is the key! I still feel like I have a foot in both worlds since I was a SAHM during my son’s first year of life (which is sometimes a blessing and sometimes a curse). For myself, it’s the cycles that are tricky. Saying “yes” or saying “no” can become a default, which isn’t healthy in the long run (for anyone). My kids are in half-day preschool, so that helps with the socialization and a break for me. But, really, my “break” is my full-time job. Still trying to figure out where rest and reset come in!

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      1. Yes the rest and the reset are important but they will come once the children are a little older.

        Don’t want to scare you but I did start to find a little “me time” for a few years but then our elderly parents started needing a lot of care so it has kind of disappeared again. Blogging is now my “me time”.

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      2. I am realizing just how elusive anything considered to be “mine” is now. The ebb and flow of life (and parenthood), I suppose! I’m so glad we have this healthy outlet – and somehow connected despite the millions of bloggers out there 🙂

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  2. Yes! I swear to you, time has sped up exponentially since I became a mother. That child of mine is bigger and more grown up every day. So bittersweet how we can’t hold on to any of it, can’t bottle it up and keep it!

    For me, part of the struggle is learning to enjoy the moment in front of me, even when it does involve cleaning, running errands, or doing paperwork when I’d rather be having a tea party with my toddler. And in enjoying the moment, hopefully not being a stress-case about it and snapping at my daughter to hurry up already. 😉

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